Wednesday again and time for Julia's blog hop around some pretty inspiring crafty desks. Click here to join in!
Well… no picture of my desk this week because the only thing on it is my large Dylusions journal which I don't get out very often. I can't say much about this page really, except that I did it yesterday evening after a particularly frustrating and upsetting day. Often when I'm upset, inspiration comes quickly and easily….
When do I get to be me?
Anyway you can see how I was feeling at the end of the day. It's not finished, not stuck down and I need to do some shading around the words and make a question mark, but you get the picture.
I then felt instantly disgusted with myself for feeling like this, selfish and moody. That's not me… I'm quite a happy, steady person… happy to help, so what's wrong? Damned if I know…
so I wrote a poem too….
ME
I am happy, yet melancholy,
I should feel content but I am restless.
I am whole but something is missing
I am fulfilled but I need more
I appear confident but want to hide...
I cry but no tears come
I stay but want to run.
Sooooo… what to do? Go for a long walk that's what…down to the sea….
Normal business will be resumed next week, I promise. The fog will lift…
I'll give myself a good talking to in the mean time and a visit to you all will cheer me up.
Lynda X
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Oh Lynda you sounded very stressed & not at all happy .I'm hoping after your walk thinks seemed a little better & you know what they say as well today is another day so my wish for you is that today is much better.
ReplyDeleteI do like your journal page also. Happy woyww Jill #11
Hope the walk helped, the seaside usually does... but you don't sound like you at all! Rushing to get ready for work and the blooming window cleaner is here at 7.30!!! take care my lovely. Helen #6
ReplyDeleteYou have set into words and pictures the feelings of many many people Lynda. Your post should go viral. You are an inspiration and show how to push through the low times. Well done xx
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Oh dear, so sorry you are feeling down at the moment. You have done a super page though and when you are feeling much better you can look back at this and reflect how it doesn't always rain on a Monday.
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Neet 26 (sending Hugs) xx
Well done for being so honest, Lynda. We all feel like that sometimes. I know I do. When life is taken up by doing so much for hubby, and my planned day simply vapourises, I think the same. I pray Father God will bring you HIS peace amidst the chaos of whatever is happening around and with you.
ReplyDeleteTake care, dear one. God bless.
Margaret #4
Oh you know what, sometimes it takes just one thing to tilt us into thinking that the whole worl dwants a part of you and then there's nothing left for you. It's not selfish at all...I think actually it helps, because you end up adjusting things slightly so that you can do all the world demands and still carve out a bit of time for yourself.....to be yourself. I'm productive when angry...things get cleaned, and cupboard doors get banged! I can only imagine that a walk along that beach is the best treatment ever. Here's selfish: I'm jealous!
ReplyDeleteHey we all feel like this so it isn't just you, give yourself a break you have probably been over doing it for everyone else and neglecting yourself. Take the time you deserve and tell everyone else to take a number and stand in line. I think the page looks great, it's you at this time, nothing wrong with that. Oh and that beach looks wonderful, sit on the shore and relax for awhile.
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Hugs Eliza & Yoda #2
Try not to be too hard on yourself, everyone has one of those days. You probably do so much for others that it does feel like there is no time for you. I hope the walk and the great LO helped lift your spirits. Will have to try your mango recipe and definitely not think of the calories.
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Hi Lynda, love the page, and the story behind it. I often think its the turning tides of the seasons that start these feelings off- our bodies know instinctively something is different, but we have so lost touch with the natural world, we feel a little lost and adrift.And we can spend so much time meeting our obligations to others, and doing what we 'have to do', we do indeed feel we have no time to be ourselves. Have a great week, Hugs, Shaz #21 xx
ReplyDeleteI can very much relate to your poem, Lynda, and also to the sentiment of your page. I'm sure it will pass soon and you'll be back to your happy self again. Sometimes we have to cut ourselves a little slack - and no it's not selfish at all, only human ;) Thanks for visiting earlier. I'm so glad you found my page inspiring! zsuzsa @ InkyDinkyDoodle #25
ReplyDeleteI totally feel your sentiment in your page and poem. We run around spending time helping others and have little time left for reflection on our selves. It will pass though..I would sure feel awesome if I had that ocean to walk by :) No sea here in Arizona..not that I am complaining as I love my rust and rose colored mountains. Happy WOYWW! Shel-PaperOctilloStudio #42
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ReplyDeleteRobyn 17
Oh Lynda, I so understand what you mean. 'Invisible tears' is what Robyn calls it. A very apt description I think. Your poem is lovely and touching. A walk along the beach does wonders though. You are lucky to live in such a beautiful place.
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Hope you feel better soon,
Thanks for stopping by earlier,
God bless,
Lisca#24
Hope that lovely walk by the beached helped!Nothing like the smell of the sea, and the sound of the waves. Take care.
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Judy
Oh, I know that feeling so well. That absolute frustration at not having time for yourself and then the self-loathing that follows for the selfish feelings. I know I'm usually PMSing when I get to that point. I'm sure some time by the water helps. That usually soothes my soul as well. Here's hoping you are feeling better and more self-assured.
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